Bought two CDs today. Pet Shop Boys and The Flaming Lips. Neither that good really.

Oh well, I went for a phototropic scan and discovered I got lots of free radicals and not enuff anti-oxidants. Bought some fruit juice reportedly high in anti-oxidants.

Giving gym a break today. Tonite I have prayer meeting. Fancy meeting Monica again, I suppose.... Chilling out to the Smiths' Best of. Still my idol - Morrisey (the lead singer).

Chilling out to S07's 507. Ha ha ha.....

Went for Body Jam today at 3 in the gym. Not bad. Clement's cool (the instructor). I really hate You's class though. Left after 5 mins after both his classes I went to.

Went to church this morning. Really feeling the age gap between myself and the cute chicks there. Obviously not getting anywhere with any of them. Although there was still a shine in Monica's eyes as she looked at me. Had lunch with Jo and Pastor Sharon. Pretty boring with the usual snide and sarcastic remarks from Jo.

Bought two bottles of Gac Juice. Getting them tomolo. Supposed to be really rich in anti-oxidants. But really maybe taking toooooooooooooo many health supplements gua.

Well, I went to the gym just now and had a four hour workout. Total calories burned is roughly 2,800. My most strenous work-out so far. Hardly any lethargy in my body. Also no desire to binge. However, coffee's effect on me is increased and I have been bingeing on coffee.

Will be making another trip to the gym tomolo. Supposed to watch Open Season with Wei Wei but she had to meet some people so really don want to wait for her if she's late. Asked Cheng Cheng to go but she declined. SMSed Kellie but I guess she is still apprehensive, afraid and shy. Oh well!

Met a chick called Echo jus now. One of those salespersons selling the anti-oxidant/free radical scanners. Said can arrange for me to have my cholesterol level and glusoce level checked. Meeting her tomolo before gym I guess. Might be some semblance of sex there, I suppose. Ha ha ha.

Had a cigarette yesterday. Was suffering heavy anxiety yesterday. Cos of the last minute work Venu piled on me. So dad saw me suffering from panicky moods and blank thoughts, offered me a cigarette. Fell asleep soon after. So it helped I guess.

Woooaarrggghhhh!!!!!Mama...... I am so stoned. Slept continually for the past four days.

I just woke up. Brother's watching Mission Impossible 3 on DVD. Felt a pretty bad urge to smoke just now. Now ok.

Gonna call Kellie later. I am so in love with her.

Still got some weird tasting phlegm now.

Kelly doesn't want to go out with me. Something about her back and her mom. Oh, man! I am so unhappy.

Gonna ask Kellie out later. Was fantasizing and thinking about her this morning.

My last day of personal training today. From now on, I do everything myself at the gym. Pretty exhausted now. Dad couldn't fetch me so walked from the LRT station.

Seems some people do read this so a big wave and a great "Wasssssuuuuuuppppppppppp!!!!" to you guys.

Just chilling out to MUSE's Black Holes and Revelations CD. Won it in a contest. Not fantastic but well-executed anyway. Had a great time at gym yesterday though I had the runs. Took some Po Chai Yuen and was alrite. So didn't go to Body Combat cos might keep going out.

Just worked my ass off on the new skating machine and weight training. Got this weird dude keep staring at me. Well, if he was gay he should make a move. But looks like he is a failure at being straight now wants to be a gay. What a weirdo!!!!!!!

Had an argument with Cheng Cheng yesterday. She wants to be with me but i don wanna forsake my other female frens. Still wanna go out with other girls. Need them for security and back-up. She don understand. Aaaaahhhhhh!!!!

Having some problems with Christy. She said I was disturbing her during the biz previews. Having a hard time accepting my love? Maybe.

Went to gym yesterday. Joined Body Jam but left fast cos don like the instructor and was doing the same moves as last week.

Going for Body Jam tonite at Maxis since Christy doesn't welcome me anymore at the hotel presentations of Bio-Young. Sob! Sob!

Listening to Bob Dylan's Blood on the Tracks now. Probably my favourite Bobby D CD cos it sounds so painful.

Had an anxiety attack yesterday and wanted to smoke but hung in there.

Not gonna be tested for carbon monoxide for the next two weeks so there's some temptation there to smoke as the clinic is closed for Al-Idul Fitr.

Went out on a date with Isabel just now. Wow! Is she pretty? Explained to her that my condition is not flower-heart but too much love for everyone (as explained by Kellie). Cos I like lotsa girls. Didn't get to watch World Trade Centre (Center?) but then again, I wasn't really up to it anyway.

Seems like Monica is liking me again after all that debacle. Stacy is acting funny in front of me. And Joanna got that strange look on her face - mebbe her bf's not satisfactory?

Another cool day of gym. Had one hour of Body Jam but after that Jumat (my trainer) made me run 2.5 km. Oh man! Whole body's aching all over now. Probably not going for the Desa Amal Jireh charity concert at Bukit Jalil tonite.

Met quite a pretty chick who went for three consecutive classes - Body Jam, Body Pump and Body Attack. She must have the hots for Jackson cos he was the instructor for all three. Oh well!

THE POLICE

"MOTHER" lyrics

Well the telephone is ringing, Is that my mother on the phone?

Telephone is ringing, Is that my mother on the phone?

The telephone is screaming, Won't she leave me alone?

The telephone is ringing, Is that my mother on the phone?

Well every girl that I go out with, Becomes my mother in the end.

Every girl I go out with, Becomes my mother in the end.

Well I hear my mother calling, But I don't need her as a friend.

Well every girl I go out with, Becomes my mother in the end.

Oh, Oh mother Oh mother dear please listen, And don't devour me.

Oh mother dear please listen, Don't devour me.

Oh women please have mercy, Let this poor boy be.

Oh mother dear please listen, And don't devour me.

Oh mother......

Well the telephone is ringing, Is that my mother on the phone?

Telephone is ringing, Is that my mother on the phone?

Oh mother......

Went clubbing at Velvet Underground yesterday. Something I haven't done in a long while. Managed to dance for an hour plus but I don feel tired. Anyway tried picking up some chicks. One Chinese chick a white dude (looked like Jason Lo) got to before me. Managed to pick up some hotel worker's number. But is she THAT kind of hotel worker? Must find out more...........

Had some vodka and tuak (S'wakian rice wine) at Rule's (my Indian lady fren's Norwegian colleague) pad before going. Nearly passed out, man. Saw black spots and everything got darker. But alrite after a while. Having rashes now........

Pretty disappointed cos the thin cute specky chick at my gym class yesterday brought her bf/husband. Aisshhhh!

Chilling out to Sheila On 7 now. Some good songs on the new CD though not quite as outstanding as some songs on their last CD.

Was on the LRT jus now with some Brian Wilson songs in my head. Sheessshhh! Should have brought his Smile CD with me today. Still don think it's as good as the Beach Boys' Pet Sounds though. Smile released in 1967 a major contender to the Beatles' Sgt. Pepper? I doubt it.

Feel like a twinge of betrayal of Caroline now that I love Christy. Hmmmm! I wonder y.

Feel like banging my head on the table. Such a weird feeling. Maybe becos I prolonged my panic attack yesterday instead of going back to sleep.

Still think I like Jackson more than Christy.

Went for Bio-Young business preview yesterday. Stoned throughout. Christy looked like she was struggling and in pain over my affections.

Will be meeting Christy tonite. Though really don't love her as much as last week. Maybe asking her for a hug and a kiss tonite?

Still trying to decide whether to get those three CDs from Bobby D., PSB and the Byrds. Watched Brian Wilson's Smile live DVD again yesterday. Still sound a lot like the Beach Boys as Brian evokes his brothers' voices and Mike Love's. But I only really like three songs off Smile - Roll Plymouth Rock, Surf's Up and Wind Chimes. Rest so-so or I have heard before one.

Heavily into Yes now. Really liked the two Trevor Horn songs (Tempus Fugit and Into the Lens) off the Drama album. Might be getting that and also Buggles one and only album, perhaps. I loved Trevor Horn as producer (Frankie Goes to Hollywood?) maybe now appraising his singing and songwriting talents?

I just woke up after a long nap. Went to church this morning. Only has one service instead of two because most of the congregation are having their semester break (summer holidays?).

Well, Chuah Earn Beng is back to her hometown. So it was kinda boring today at church. Yeah yeah yeah, going to church is all for God but chick-watching remains a secondary pursuit. Only Stacy and Michelle are there to stir my interest. Monica looked extremely pretty today. I wonder y.

Had lunch with Ps. Kenneth and Wilson and Jo. Everybody was quite generous with their praises over my appearance after gym and kicking smokes.

Had a great time at the gym today. For once. Mostly training with a whatchamacallit elastic rope. Jumat, my trainer, was pretty perplexed with my weight gain and asked me to list down what I eat starting tomolo.

Still thinking about whether to get Pet Shop Boys', Bob Dylan's and The Byrds' latest CDs. Are they any good? I dunno.

Mom and dad away for a wedding dinner so really dunno what to occupy myself with......

Cheng Cheng not picking up my calls. Hmmmmmm........ So's Adrienne (that chick I picked up last week). So's June. Sporting a trend there?

Cheng Cheng ditched me yesterday. She said I got no plans wor and feel insecure about me. Which paves the way for Christy lor.

Got some bling bling for Jenny C cos she's mad about the haze. Care package? Couriered just today.

Thought about going to Subang Jaya this morning to collect my MUSE CD but heck! too much trouble. Asked Rachel from THINK to courier to my house lor. Missing out somewhat if she is pretty.

Chetted up a pretty Iraqi girl in the LRT this morning. Lim Choon Wee goes global!

Went for BY seminar yesterday. Felt so sleepy and stoned I left early and didn't talk much to Christy. She caressed my back when I was leaving (Isabel said it's a good sign).

Cheng Cheng asked me for sex. Probably do her one of these days. Eyeing this half-Chink half-white woman works around here. Gonna approach her soon. For sex, maybe?

The Nyatun Umin case in JB got struck off. How arr? Got somebody to mention but still struck off. I'm paranoid it's Venu trying to get me away from this firm by all this manoeuvres ler. Am I THAT paranoid? Really dunno what to do ler....... Got some urge to smoke but not much.........

Chilling out to Juanes now. Luckily didn't give this to Jenny C cos it's starting to grow on me.

Was at GH this morning. Doc wasn't in so she prescribed me meds earlier. Anyway, pretty stable now and nothing much to talk about to the doc.

Will be meeting Christy later. I can't hardly wait.

About I month I week I day in my quit already. Aisay! The NRT is not doing anything also. Might as well not have the NRT.

Watched the Hunger yesterday. David Bowie's acting is crap. Susan Sarandon is cool though..... She really deserved that Oscar for Dead Man Walking.

Listening to Mogwai now. About marginally better than Mew - that other Alan McGee championed band but that's really not saying much.

Seeing Christy on Wed.

Got some DVDs yesterday. More of the Hong Kong import pirated stuff. Got Easy Rider - which has some great music and that pictorial depiction of an LSD trip which is somewhat similar to Philip K. Dick's descriptions in his books. Makes me wanna try LSD.

Also got two other DVDs of movies which I only seen the censored versions - Dressed to Kill and The Hunger. Dressed to Kill is a pretty good tribute to Hitchcock and "Psycho". Much better that that pointless shot-by-shot remake anyway. What was the point of that, anyway?

The Hunger I rented last time only cos of David Bowie starring in it. Nothing that great but quite sexy and violent anyway. Tony Scott's big-budget directorial debut, I believe......

Just got back from two days two nights at Awana Genting. Kinda miss smoking at the balcony. But otherwise okay. Tried not to eat so much.

Found out on Friday that I lost 3.5 kgs. CoQ10 at work? So happy...........

Gonna go back home and sleep after this.