It's just I had this feeling of not being loved on Friday. Then postponed my kick smoking clinic appointment. Then I made some mistake with really important work that decides my rice bowl (my earnings) so was smoking a lot of friday. Ok again on Saturday. Jus smoked 2. Then met this girl i fancied on sunday and she was like ignoring me so got back to smoking again. Felt really bad on Monday and yesterday as well. Yesterday felt ok cos I won my case but maybe not so hard won on the professional courtesy as the other side lawyer said i didn't inform him and went ahead with the hearing. Smoked my last pack. Making my decision to quit again and faced a lot of scolding from the nurse at the clinic yesterday.

Started from the feeling of nostalgi about the first few times I smoked. The cigarettes taste like that again after quitting. Me I'm a lurker, don really know how to help others on the quit smoking BBS. The clinic gave me some bigger nicotine patches. I'm starting the quit date again and the process.

Went thru hell trying to get up today again. Sheesshh! Do I have to go thru weight gain again?